my promises are shot to the ground.
and i apologize, lovely readers. i really need to try harder.
i've just been having a rough time lately, full of frustration and deadlines and worry warts. talk about stress in my life. ha! that's funny.
honestly. . . we're just going to start over. from scratch. i think that's a great idea. today, i'm having a good day. i woke up, saw one of my friends off to school, and cleaned up my room.
but, now this is sounding like an online journal. and i don't want my blog to be that. i might as well just write in an ACTUAL online diary. but it is not so. why am i telling you about my day?
because, i'm trying to get you into the mindset that the little things can make a huge difference. lately, i've been working out more, and i'm trying to build up my confidence inside and out. i'm also trying hard to be stronger in the gospel. i never said it was easy, but it is definitely worth it. it's hard, reading your scriptures and writing in your journal and following Christ. it sounds simple, so simple. but it's so much harder because of the simplicity of it. yet, i know what is true. i know what i believe in. i can't deny it. so i can only take a couple steps FORWARD from every mistake i make, in order to try and become a better person. don't live in the past. dwell in the present, but choose the path you want your future to become.
and be positive. my lovely grandmother gave me sunflowers to put in my room today. and i absolutely love sunflowers. i feel like if i had to choose a flower to represent my soul, it would be a sunflower, hands freaking down. sunflowers represent me in every way. they look towards the light that gives them strength to become beautiful, they may droop at times when they're lacking their nutrients, but they never stop trying to reach the skies. and that's what i'm trying to do.
so far, i think it's working. i really hope so. ladies & gents, you are a sunflower. that sounded super duper cheesy, but i don't care. it's true. we're all sunflowers. we really need to start acting like one. it's difficult, and it's hard to try and become a beautiful sunflower that reaches towards the sky. but it's definitely possible.
radiate positivity.
be your best self.
don't stress the little things.
*and more inspirational quotes you can think of here*
truth is, i'm not perfect. not by a long shot. i've got a TON i still need to learn. and so do you. but that's why we're all here, together. to learn and help each other, to lift our spirits up, fix our souls to represent the glorious creations inside of us. i make mistakes, i don't know what i'm doing half the time, heck i don't have a solid plan for this semester. . .
but that doesn't mean i can't try and control my life. the right way, at least. taking control of your life means letting Him in completely. letting Him heal the scars inside you with sunlight. letting Him take away your pain with fervent whispers of love and peace. letting Him guide you towards the future you know He wants for you. letting Him love you.
because Heavenly Father really does love you. please don't forget that. it's imperative you remember that at all times. you aren't alone. no matter what people, or society, or your crabby neighbor next door tells you. you are not alone.
you are not alone.
you will never be alone.