March 31, 2014

enter title post here.

okay. not really sure what i intend on writing about. i just know i need to write because it's been a LONG time.

but here we go, random fact of the day. my heart beat faster than normal.

and i found that out today, just an experiment i decided to do while running. and while i can't worry about it just yet, it explains a lot of how i was as a child. and how i was never really able to over exert myself when it came to sports and hardcore recreational activities. because whenever i would run, exercise, play tag with the rug rats, swim, laugh really hard, sing with all my heart, i would feel so out of breath to the point where my chest burns. and it's hard to breath. you feel like passing out. it's not really fun.

now, i always thought that was just normal, just typical "sierra".

apparently it's NOT normal to have your heart beat 110 beats per minute. the NORMAL range is between 50-80 beats per minute. so while it's not completely at the top of my priority list just yet, it's good to keep an eye on it.

i've also learned that keeping yourself healthy is not just recommended. it's actually pretty serious. now a days, so many people take their life for granted. they get addicted to the most harmful things, and the media condones it! excessive caffeine, alcohol, drugs, cigarettes, lots and lots of donuts, or Girl Scout cookies (shhh), are just a few among the secret assassins in our bodies   

when i grow up, i want to be healthy for my kids. i want to take care of my body and still look dang good even when i'm forty-five. i would like my kids to take me seriously when i tell them to exercise, or not eat so much junk food, or choose something else besides a Monster. and i want to be alive throughout all their most important events in their life.

why?

simple. i want to see them grow up. i want to see the world change. heck, i want to help CHANGE the world. and i can't really do that if i'm six feet under ground.

anyways, just keep yourself healthy. you may be addicted to dr pepper or cherry coca cola, but just remember you have a purpose in life. and you have a wonderful future ahead of you. don't take it for granted. because you never know when it can be taken from you like *that*. 

March 9, 2014

sunday funday

today, i decided to take a leap and actually attend my singles ward. whoa. let me tell you. . . if you ever want to experience something that's completely crazy and wild and very interesting, all you have to do is go to a singles ward near you and you'll get the whole package, man.

i mean, i met a lot of people and they were all nice to me, especially since i'm a newbie. i attended the ward with my friend, austin. and it was pretty funny, because here in utah, if you go to a ward and bring a girl, it's most likely assumed you're together. so a lot (i mean A LOT) of people came up to austin, asking him if i was his girlfriend. talk about laugh out loud funny. there was this one guy, brian, who i later found out was twenty eight years old, thought it was funny to try and flirt mad hard with me. he was winking a lot, and gave this "speech" about how he was born with this disease that gave him irregular muscle spasms and sometimes he doesn't even know what's happening half the time. right after that speech, he proceeded to try and hold my hand, blaming his "disease". it was pretty clever, but i was like "i have a boyfriend, thanks though". haha needless to say, he thought i was twenty one, and quickly let go of my hand when he found out my true age. it was awko taco. but we handled it well.

since church started at one, there's four different wards in the building. so we had relief society & priesthood first, then gospel doctrine, and last but not least, sacrament meeting. it's awkward going to a new ward, seeing all these faces you've never met, and sitting next to a stranger during class. but that's the part when, if they don't come up to you, you have to make the first move in introducing yourself and making yourself known. so i met this sweet girl, paige. and she was telling me about the ward. it sounded pretty fun. there's a tongan ward that's right before ours and they had munch n mingle.

oh my gosh. island food. give me island food any day and i'm yours. seriously.

but anyways, let's not get carried away talking about food. because you'll never get me back on topic.

gospel doctrine talked about the purpose of marriage and how setting your goal on an eternal marriage is different than setting your goals on a successful marriage. although, without happiness and love in your marriage, even if it IS eternal, it won't necessarily be successful. it works both ways. you and your eternal companion must have the same outlook on life, must think of Christ first. always. even if you're married in the temple, won't always "guarantee" a perfect happy ending. it's a lot of work, and you have to be dedicated and compassionate and compromising. but if you stick it out to the end, and always put your spouse and your children before yourself, you will have the marriage that most couples only dream of.

in other words, for the non-mormons reading this post, that's basically the only topic we talk about in a singles ward. LOL.

just kidding. but it's pretty up there.

sacrament meeting was wonderful! a young man who's getting ready to serve a mission in kentucky, is going to the MTC in mexico. so he spoke today, and it was a good talk. really insightful.

our munch n mingle, sad to say, was not as exciting as the tongans. but we did have a potato bar complete with nacho cheese, cheddar cheese, mouth watering chili, and buttered broccoli. okay, well it wasn't that good, but it's still food. and i still ate two of them. whatever.

but the reason why i'm bringing this up, is because i learned something valuable while attending this new ward. and that is, no matter where you are, or who you go with, it's important to realize that the church is true wherever you go. sure, there are going to be some members that have no concept of sympathy or have any social skills to use on outsiders, and that's okay. you learn to be on your own two feet, and speak up first. there's nothing wrong with that. and who knows? if you do, you can make some amazing friends.

just be yourself. 

because God made you that way. and there's no reason why you should try and be someone else. it's pointless. you're beautifully amazing in your own way. and even though there are so many inspirational quotes in society today that say that same cliché, i really want you to drill that into your mind, and believe it with everything you breathe in. because it's one hundred percent true. seriously. God didn't make you the way you are so you could see yourself in the mirror and be miserable for the rest of your life. that doesn't even make sense. He is there for you. He will always be there for you. He will never fail you. even if you fall to the point where you seem like it's impossible to get back up, like it's not even worth the effort, He's right next to you, reaching for you. all you have to do is humble yourself to the point where you'll let Him in.

for me, going to a new ward and not knowing anyone is really scary. but once i step inside that chapel, i just become overwhelmed with the Spirit. because i know i'm where i should be. where my spirit can call home. and no matter how i'm treated, or how i'm looked at, it depends on me and me alone to decide if i'll let it get to me, or if i'll be the strong one and go to church for my spiritual benefits. just remember the church is true. the gospel can bring unlimited joy and spiritual pleasure into your life, and if you let it consume your spirit, you will find yourself basking in the sunlight. and not just any sunlight, but the sunlight that's found in Heavenly Father's love. i promise you.

if you're reading this, and you're not a member of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, i implore you to read for yourself about the gospel. because once you do, you can never go back. you'll experience some wonderful feelings inside you that you'll never be able to fully comprehend or explain. but the catch is you have to LET it change you.

it's all up to you. 

and i believe in you.

March 2, 2014

the joy of a testimony.

being a Mormon is not the easiest thing in the world. but. . . it's worth it. it's one hundred percent worth it. i would know from personal experience. church today was very interesting. for one, it was fast sunday. so not eating for three hours is a HUGE task. but i can safely say that i've successfully accomplished that task. second, because it's fast sunday, people in the congregation are encouraged to go up and bear their testimony. it's completely optional, but when you do bear your testimony, you just get this warm, peaceful feeling. and it's like nothing you'll ever experience.

so when i'm sitting in the pew, fighting with myself on whether or not i should even go up, i had a blunt awakening towards the end of sacrament meeting. my phone buzzed in my lap, and i looked down to find a text message from the boyf (yes, that must be shocking to read. but don't worry, i'll talk about him later. . . maybe sometime this week. patience.) . nicholas (aka the "boyf") had said "bear your testimony :)"

so i did. 

i think he was the one that pushed me to go up there. i didn't want to talk to him later, and have him ask me that simple question, "did you bear your testimony?" and regretfully say no.

after i texted him the confirmation that yes, i did bear my testimony. . . he shared this scripture with me. and it's forever one of my favorites.

d&c 62:3 - Nevertheless, ye are blessed, for the testimony which ye have borne is recorded in heaven for the angels to look upon; and they rejoice over you, and your sins are forgiven you.

i've been through a lot of different experiences, trials, and hardships in my life. none of which i can regret, so to speak, because they are the reasons why i am the way i am today. and if i had not gone through those said trials, i may not be the same "sierra" everyone knows now. i may still be taking the gospel for granted at times, not reading the scriptures or writing in my journal as much as i should. not taking prayer seriously, unless i went to some sort of church activity that would get me "spiritually high" for about a week, then slowly wear off after a short while.

no. not anymore. i'm done with treating my Heavenly Father like he was a slice of tomato on my juicy burger. okay that's probably confusing. let me explain. i hate tomatoes. no seriously, they're just so slimy and gross and juicy-in-all-the-wrong-ways revolting. and for a while, like i do to all my tomatoes on my otherwise delectable burgers and sandwiches, i'll pluck it out of there and plop it onto a napkin, only to await its fate of being thrown away. 

it's kind of like taking Heavenly Father out of my life, "plucking" Him out, and tossing him aside on a napkin that will soon be forgotten, pushed to the side by worldy fun, by devilish temptations, by careless decisions. and i'm extremely tired of digging that napkin out of the trash of sin, and trying to bring Him back into my life. it's much easier if i just face the gospel with a positive attitude, always putting Him first before anything else. because as long as i do that, nothing can push me down. they may try, but if i'm strong and faithful and if i keep building my testimony into a roaring fire, they will fail.

i can't say the same for the tomato in the napkin. it may be a while before i actually suck it up and eat that too.

in the words of hilary weeks:


I have felt the spirit burn truth in my heart 
It's in my heart 

I will stand 
I will not fall 
In a world that's weak 
I will be strong 



I'll be true 
I will choose His way 
Yeah, I know what's right 
And I will not change 
In a world where so many will not 
I will